Thinking of you

You said you don't believe in second chances and I respect that. The song basically says everything I want to. I don't know how much I love you. Like I said, it's not like you can measure how much you love someone with a love-o-meter or something. But I must say that saying I love you alone will be an understatement to how I feel for you. I'm not sure where will this eventually lead to. I'm not even sure if I'm brave enough to come face to face with the truth. I needed to talk to you and ask you all those questions because I no longer am what I use to be. Perhaps like you said, I have grown. I no longer want to jump into any conclusions and assume anything anymore. It's been fun and I feel as if I could be myself and no longer have to hide in my shell when I'm with you. You said I no longer need anyone. I don't know why but when you uttered those words, I felt as though I have to be responsible over everything that will come my way. It made me feel vulnerable. I guess she does need you more than I do. I guess you do love her more than you will ever come close to feeling that kind of passion towards me. The fear of not being able to spend time with you kills me. If ever you do happen to fall in love with me under the circumstances we're currently in, I must admit that I would be tempted to take advantage of it. You always hear people say you gotta fight for love. But I guess I wont considering loving someone doesn't necessarily mean having someone. *how cliche* but there has to be a certain amount of truth to it for it to be a cliche no?

My love, I wish you all the happiness in the world whether or not I get to be apart of it.