hypocrite's conscious: July 2008

cheer hurts

and I have a picture to prove it! haha. It's not that I love cheer any less but it hurts! That's my shoulder. NOT pretty ain't it? Got it on Wednesday and it's still there.

i love lifehouse

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

i love blogspot

why? cause it saves what i typed while i type it. i had a lil electricity trip and my blog was saved!! yay!! fyi it takes a long time for me to upload photos.

yes i do miss u

7.15pm July 27th, a plane boarded off to Australia. In it, my fav aunt, my fav cousin and new fav sista( cousin's wife ) before they left, Roland said " Admit it! You're gonna miss me!" and i kept quiet. Guess what Roland? I do miss you, i miss every one of you. I'm sorry i couldn't send y'all off cause I had gymnastics. When I left and gave you all your hugs. I must admit my eyes were watery but i brushed it off. The moment I got on the car I heard "I try to say goodbye and I choked, try to walk away but I stumbled, though I try to hide it, it's clear....."it was a song by Macy Gray. I hate her but I related to the song at that moment. Making it worse was a loving note by my aunt that touched me deeplywhen I got back from gym. I noticed that their trip here awarded me plenty. The gifts I received are simply wonderful. Roland, you made me love my 100kilo cousin all over again. Jay, it was a pleasure meeting you and I mean it with every bit of love I've got for you. Aunt Kim and Uncle David made me grateful for the relatives I've got. I am so impressed with my Uncle David. He is a great man who deserves respect for he is a man of grace. This I say because during my grandma's funeral, he did his part as a son in law and never once complaint despite his back's condition. He tolerated with every thing we had to do in the prayer ritual. I must admit, even I was a bit tired of the ritual we were required complete. Aunt Kim is always wise and has an extremely cute laugh and one thing about her is that she eats like a kid. very small portions. And i can never forget the way Roland annoys me so that I wake up. And Jay would always stand up for me and she's just the sweetest thing. We both LOVE manggo puding with nata de coco by cocon and we also share a love for cendol in my sri muda as well as sugar cane drink and the chinese slices of bbq meat thingy which i dont know what it's called. Ok ok, enough of this. let's see pictures!!!

Ever since they came, I got plenty of gifts! a bunch of snacks to fatten me up, GUESS jeans, another pair of jeans, 2 t-shirts, a black cap, A CAMERA!, 2 BIKINI, CHOCOLATES and comic books of the simpsons. Thanks a lot.